Its Beginning to look a lot like Christmas!

Oh yes thats right...its not that far away...exactly 3 months from today and its the night before Christmas Eve! I got up to go the the Farmers Market with Aaron and Mary Grace, we had a lot of fun! You know when you go outside first thing in the morning and you just breath in and it smells like Christmas?! That is what happened to me this morning! Its so exciting.
It was so great to meet up with Mary Grace! She surprised me with pink daisies:) We had a lot of fun. I also ran into Jess there at the market, we are great friends but I never see her anymore which makes me kinda sad:( I have really learned to appreciate my friends lately.And not to mention my family who I miss really badly. I have been going through a really rough time lately, and I the biggest fear I have in life is disapointing my family. I love them so much that it would kill me to think that I have done that. My thing is I can't understand after all the screwing up I have done, that they would love me unconditionally after all this time. Maybe when I have a family someday I will understand. All I want to do is be home with my family and see my little cousins, who I miss terribly. There is something so special about a child getting really excited to see you, which happens whenever I see my cousin Jarrett. He is so cute and I love making him happy just by showing up and hearing him say 'AYISSA' (thats my name in little kiddy talk)
Anyways I must get ready for the day...so much to do....